Tag Archives: PPD
Postpartum depression is a roller coaster of emotions following giving birth. It can happen to fathers and mothers, and can manifest immediately or months after birth. For me, it came around 4 weeks postpartum with my third child. It is different for everyone who goes through it, but this is my version. My newest little lady is immensely beautiful and I could stare at her and snuggle with her all day long if I could. I try, but the other two littles running around preclude that fantasy! Thankfully I have an amazingly experiences baby-snuggler in the house who wants nothing more than to love on my newest bundle (Thanks Gg)! The only time I do not feel totally head over heels in love with Gabi, is the 5 minutes or so two times per night when she stirs me from my not actual sleep with her crying of hunger. […]
I had some reservations about posting this, as it is likely to receive a good bit of negative critiques. However, I realized that I am not alone in this, and other mothers should be aware of this and know it is normal and OK. I see this beautiful baby sound asleep on my chest and I feel…nothing. Actually, that’s not true, I do feel something but it isn’t positive; it’s guilt. I feel guilty for some reason because I do not feel that feeling every other mother talks about. All I ever wanted was to be a mother and I pressured my husband to have children sooner than he initially wanted. I was so sure that having a baby would so instantly enhance my life and just make my heart burst out of my chest like it does when I think of my husband. I am well read when […]